Just another normal day at college.. being jealous with what others have with their relationship.. But why.. I tought i never mind these things.. But seems like things are getting different now...

After half a year of waiting.. I finally realised, after everything i did, i missed her.. I realised that i loved her than any other girls i came upon.. I think i started to regret why did i left her..

Because i loved her soo much, not letting her to be hurt and not even letting her to have pressure, i left her.. I was selfish.. i kept all the feelings and even the pressure inside me without letting her knowing that i am facing loads of problems..

I just like to let you know, I love you.. Sorry for leaving you but i know everything is too late.. late... its too late.. I regretted... But now no more.. I wanted to start a new life.. Life of the lone gunner..

1.50am May 26th..

Just finished my last paper today and WOOH!!~ HOLIDAY!!!~~

Well, i'll be flying back to Sandakan on 7th May and back on 17th.. So, i wont be able to update anything here.. After i reach back KL from Sandakan i'll upload pics in Facebook and maybe friendster too.

Well, nothing much here... Happy Hols!!~ XD~~~

12.15pm~

Well.. Just by a chance, i managed to chat with a primary schoolmate.. She is a funny and cute one really..

Dreaming big is not something bad.. If you never dream of being a millionaire, you might never have the encouragement to work yourself up till that level.. I dreamt of serving the community and bring happiness to them with whatever job i could do in the future and now i am working my way up.. This funny girl actually told me she day dreamt with a few friends where she became very rich.. Richer and Bill Gates and she had unlimited money.. Her dream is way too big but, i know she would really work her way up.. All the best to you~ :)~

Being Happy is a thing that everyone wanted to have.. Serving others maybe would make you happy? go for it~ Mastrubating just to have fun and happy? do it~ Sometimes happiness is priceless if you would really wanna compare it with the value of money~ If you felt that spending your money could really make yourself happy, do it~ Its worth doing it :)~

5.20am

I have loads of things to write here but just soo sudden a post with 2k words just vanished in few seconds..

Just to be fast.. I will be writing something about my past in Sandakan and how i ended up in Sandakan..

My father is a government servant since he came out from his Secondary school.. I was borned in the capital of Sabah, Kota Kinabalu, KK.. I met a few people that i could really recall back.. Jason Tan, Nick Tan, Ting Shi Teng, Ang Shi Yao.. Jason and Nick are sons of a friend of my dad.. They could be said as my childhood friend.. Jason is coming to KL very soon to further his studies in UTAR.. :)..

I joined Pui Gin in 2001 leaving St James back at KK.. I met loads of people there.. Cady Hing, Nicole Hing, Liew Jing Shi, Lai Ming Kent, Chin Yee Sean, Au Cheng Yee, Au Shet Yee and loads more till i cant really recall back.. The one who gives me the best memories in Pui Gin are still Nicole Hing and Cady Hing... They are actually twins.. Since we left Pui Gin, we still contacted each others.. Until now, we are still contacting each other tho i am far away from Sandakan.. We visited each other's house during CNY every year and its like a tradition for us.. hehe~ After SPM, we went out for tea, lunch, and even shoppin together~ :)~ The thing that made me touched is that they are the only people who farewelled me at the airport when i left Sandakan.. Thanks Siew Siew and Peng Peng.. Appreciate that very much..

During my days at my Secondary school, St Mary, i joined the Red Crescent.. I met loads of people here that changed my life.. Mr Chan aka Hei gor.. I can say that he is the best youth in Malaysia and hopefully he can even make his way up to be one of the top in the world.. He is good looking, planned with all the positive values which i could not see any weakness in him.. I would like to thank him for giving me chances in Red Crescent and in SAPP for me to lead groups and even the chances to organize activities with other committees.. If not for Hei gor, maybe i wont be the today me.. Thanks Hei gor..

In RC Sandakan, i met a girl that gave a very big impact towards my life.. Ho Xiaojun aka Junnie or XJ is the girl.. The way i know her and how our friendship grows is a little strange as i can say.. I think i gonna write everything about her down in the next part...

1.56am

Its been a very long time since i've ever updated my blog.. Well, things are getting fine here and am enjoying my few days of holiday before another paper..

I really regretted not giving all my shot during Semester1 exam in DCB and i have to resit 3 papers not including the 2 main papers.. I just finish my 4th paper today which is the Pre-Calculus.. I met a friend i knew in my Volleyball team Alvin. He told me he resitted Pre-Calculus 3 times and still dont get at least a grade C for that subject during his days in Penang TARC.. I did kindda okay.. hopefully could pass the subject.. Next paper will be on next Tuesday.

I'll be hitting back Sandakan on next Thursday till 17th May.. I missed Sandakan alot especially my friends there and all the food and snacks.. I cant imagine how much weight i will gain during the 10 days visit back Sandakan. My main objective going back Sandakan is actually to get my SPM cert only but since loads of things happened in the prefects, i was thinking to give some advice by calling a meeting with the supreme council of the prefects of St Mary.. But, since their boss(Anitha after Mr Amit) need to know what i'll be telling, she need to meet me.. Sorry Anitha, i need to get bz with my things.. I know my limitations and since you cant take good care of your prefects, i may wondering to give some advice.. Since i left and you took prefects, the prefects are getting worse.. Frankly speaking thats the name~ Well, gonna save my time, and all the best to the prefects led by Patrick~

These few days i have been rushing from Setapak to Shah Alam and back to Setapak.. This is getting me crazy.. I have loads of things to take care at MU and since my mom is at Shah Alam, i have to go back and look after my mom.. She is recovering from a rare disease.. I cant really remember what is the disease.. Hopefully she is feeling fine now..

Here, i would like to say thanks to a few friends of mine for being supportive in giving advices for me since i joined DCB.. Lee Ling aka Ling Ling and Miao Miao.. This girl? hard to describe her.. She is full of topics when you talk with her, another words given to her by herself, crappy! hahas.. She gives loads of advices from studies to love problems.. Caring is the word for her~ XD~~ Secondly, Candy Wong aka Ying.. I knew this girl a very long time ago but din really contacted her cuz i dont know her much.. But frankly, shes a friendly girl and she have her own problems too.. We shared our own problems to each other and being not to keep any secrets between us~ :)~ hey Ying, all the best for you with Dim Dim XD~~~

Heres a special one for guys in DCB A4.. I call them the Hostel Gang~ Kelvin Ng Kah Hoong, Allen Phoon, Kim Ng, Kim Hwo, Kar Yeow and Jun Lun.. I would like to say thanks to Kumar and also Boon Peng.. These guys really helped me out in DCB.. From tutorials, to lectures and even assignments, they helped me alot.. Special thanks to Kim and Allen.. Girls? i cant say much but thanks to them too.. Belinda as A4 leader, Ora, Alicia, Erica and Cheryl.. Special thanks to Jia Jia.. Shes a health buffer really.. She encouraged me to the gym and now, i am going there once a week with her to pump up some muscles~ XD~~ and for her notes too.. thanks!~ Standard size is always the best choice XD~~

Another thanks to Justin as DCB course rep and Tee Kim as Assistant.. They really put loads of effort in getting DCB running smoothly.. Rydel? as printing manager~ for the notes, thanks and wish you happiness forever with Ling Ling~ XD~~

My days in DCB, i only made a girl angry.. Ora, Sorry for what i've done really.. and, i still remember the bet we made.. i still owe you Sushi~ hahas~ Well, i did everything just for fun.. but it came up hurting others.. i am terribly sorry for my actions and words..

Its almost 1am.. i think i gonna have my rest now.. Need to get bz with things 2mrw.. Night everyone..